It seems to me that, many people are in search of a more meaningful existence.
Is this due to the financial crisis? Perhaps the Venus transit- a once in 100 years, astrological event in which Venus passes between the earth and the sun?
Either way, I find myself among those longing for a more heart-centered life.
I had spent years, as a type A, single mom, building a business, and a home. I got really burned out on the striving. There was a hole in my heart that looking back I think I tried to fill with stuff and experiences. In the past 5 years, I have left a 30-year career, sold my home and most of my furniture, and moved several times. While it has been a bit unsettling at times, there is something to be said for living light.
I have become a seeker. A seeker of something deeper and more meaningful, more intimate and creative and most importantly- more authentic. Before, lightening up my life, I felt like I did not even know who I was anymore. My stress level was so high that I hardly slept. I had gone from being an artist to an administrator. I hated it and the more I hated it the worse it got.
After purging my life of a lot of accumulated stuff - I started writing, meditating and creating art. Then, I went in search of some sunshine, my soul and my perfect place on the planet.
I found the sunshine in Naples, FL- a lovely place that I may return to one day but something was missing. Next, I tried Santa Fe, New Mexico - a deeply spiritual and creative place but, there is no water and more brown than green. I loved Santa Fe, but it was not my perfect place either. I have circled back to my hometown of Minneapolis, nearer friends and family (for the moment). I know the journey will continue.
Lest you think this journey sounds romantic, trust me it has been hard. I have traveled this road alone. Along the way, I experienced every possible emotion from feeling courageous, confident and adventurous to feeling alone, fearful and depressed. Through it all, I know in my deepest sense of knowing, that this is my journey, all of the lessons I learn along the way make me better for the experience and with more wisdom to share.
Is there a perfect place? I see it in my mind so clearly, that I know one day I will manifest it into my life. It is a yellow craftsman cottage, with a wrap around covered porch, a flagstone patio and an outdoor kitchen. There is an art & writing studio in the back right corner of the yard. There is a room where I can do Reiki. The kitchen can seat many people easily for all of the wonderful meals I will prepare. It is in a sunnier and warmer climate, in a smaller town that feels like Mayberry. I see myself living there and creating a balanced, heart-centered life. Earning my living as an inspirational artist, author and, energy worker.
I will persist in living lighter. It has become most important to me to gather wisdom, creative experience and a community of kindred spirits than anything else.
Stay tuned, by the time January rolls around- I am sure that I will long to be back in warmer, sunny weather. All I know with certainty, is that I will keep following my heart and will continue to expand spiritually and creatively.
One day you'll look to see I've gone
For tomorrow may rain, so I'll follow the sun
Some day you'll know I was the one
But tomorrow may rain, so I'll follow the sun